Having a really hard day....

I got a bit more sleep last night,went to sleep around 2 am or so, and got up at 7, but my mood and appetite are all out of whack now. Feeling pretty irritable today, and out of sorts all around. Financial worries have been hitting me pretty hard recently, and despite things being a little easier currently, that's just one more drop in the bucket right now. I'm not quite depressed, I won't let myself be, I've come too far. That is the direction I would have gone a year ago, though, or even six months ago.

Losing my job when I did has really helped me in a lot of ways, making me cut out unnecessary expenses, and learn to live on a lot less than I had grown accustomed to. It's been good, in that it has brought me back closer to the person I used to be, the one who paid off a 5 bedroom home before I was 30. I'm regaining the confidence that was destroyed by a constant beatdown from working thankless, dreary make work jobs.

And yet, today, I just don't give a crap about making sure I eat at regular intervals, or get enough fruit, or even how many Weight Watchers points I use. I'm hunkering down, making some jewelry, and watching Hamlet tonight. If that doesn't work, maybe some House will do the trick. Always good to watch someone else who doesn't suffer fools gladly.

What I need to do, is get out for a good walk, or hit the weight room. I know that, but I just don't care right this moment. I'm going to take some time, wallow in my crankiness, and I'll get in a short workout later tonight.

Breakfast
12 oz coffee with raw sugar

lunch
2 cups rice and beans
3 oz ground turkey

Dinner
2 slices whole wheat
4 oz ham
15 tortilla chips
1/2 cup salsa

Didn't end up watching Hamlet, after all. Have it DVR'd, so I will get to finishing it soon. David Tennant is Fantastic, as usual! Tickled the girl for a bit, then she wanted to play video games with me. A while blowing stuff up and killing monsters made my attitude much improved!

I felt like crap all day today...

Because I was up ALL NIGHT last night. No real reason for it, either. Just my old friend, insomnia. Finally fell asleep around 5:30, then awakened to see the girl cub off to school, back asleep until 10, when I had to get up and submit the Avon order. Up since then.

Anyway...

Breakfast
24 oz coffee with raw sugar-I used the BIG mug today.
4 oz ham
2 slices whole wheat
14 tortilla chips
1/2 cup salsa

snack
2 small mandarins

lunch
1 cup white rice
1 cup sweet and sour sausage
8 oz coffee with stevia

snack
1 slice homemade wheat bread with 1 tbsp honey
14 cashews

dinner
1 cup white rice
1 cup sweet and sour sausage

Breakfast
12 oz coffee with raw sugar
1 small orange
1 slice wheat bread with honey

lunch
2 cups chicken macaroni casserole(chicken, olives, mac and cheese, cheddar)

snack
12 cashews

Don't know if I will get dinner tonight or not. I have a Chamber of Commerce meet and greet tonight, followed by dance class, where they want me to play the didgeridoo. . There are supposed to be some sort of food available at the Chamber thing, but whether or not it will be something I am willing to consume, I don't know. I don't quite have time to grab anything now, so we'll see.

Managed to make some time for food!

Dinner
4 oz ham
2 slices whole wheat
13 tortilla chips
1/2 cup salsa
2 cups salad
2 tbsp Light raspberry vinaigrette

Got to the Chamber event, and as it turned out, there was actually a sit down meal served. :-/
So, to be polite:
1 chicken/shrimp kabob(1 oz chicken, 1 shrimp, various veggies)
3 oz prime rib
1 cup salad
1 tbsp light raspberry vinaigrette

So, not so well on the eating heavy morning meals and a light evening one. Have to work on that. But, I still came in well under my WW points for the day. It's gotten to the point that it's natural for me, it seems.

New Recipe

Bacon Ranch Doritos Casserole

Ingredients

1 lb ground turkey

1 tsp cumin

1 tsp chili powder

1 (10 oz) can tomatoes

1 (10 oz) can corn, drained

3/4 cup Bacon Ranch dressing

2 cups nacho cheese flavor Doritos, lightly crushed

2 cups cheddar cheese, shredded

Directions

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

2. Brown turkey in a skillet. Add seasonings while cooking.

3. Mix beef, tomatoes, corn and ranch dressing together and put into casserole dish. Top with Doritos and cheese.

4. Bake 20 minutes, uncovered.

Turned out to be not so bad for me(9 ww points for 1 cup serving) and Delicious! I plan to bring the points down by using regular tortilla chips next time, and possibly low fat cheese or less whole fat cheese. The cheese is what really kicked the points value up. 2 cups of cheese used the same amount of points as the rest of the recipe together. I did not have bacon ranch, so I used ranch dressing and baconsalt(one of my favorite things, btw). Baconsalt

Breakfast
12 oz coffee with raw sugar
1 orange
14 cashews
1 slice bacon

lunch
1 cup Bacon Ranch Dorito Casserole

snack
10 cashews
1 small mandarin

Dinner
Fell asleep in the recliner with the girl. No dinner.

Weight record:
329.8 lbs-2/1/2010
324.4 lbs-2/5/2010
323.2 lbs-2/6/2010
323.4 lbs-2/7/2010
335.0 lbs-2/14/2010
326 lbs-2/21/2010
323.2 lbs-2/23/2010
322.8 lbs-2/26/2010
321.8 lbs-2/28/2010
320.6 lbs-3/2/2010
319.6 lbs-3/7/2010
317.8 lbs-3/13/2010
314.8 lbs-3/21/2010
314.6 lbs-3/22/2010
313.8 lbs-3/29/2010
312.4 lbs-4/1/2010
310.2 lbs 4/4/2010
309.8 lbs 4/5/2010
307.4 lbs 4/12/2010
307.0 lbs 4/16/2010
307.0 lbs 4/19/2010
305.8 lbs 4/26/2010

Girl cub is sick today. Darn school, always something going around. I think I had a touch of it last night, was up late feeling poorly, then slept late.

Breakfast
2 slices whole wheat
4 oz ham

snack
1 small orange

lunch
3 oz ground turkey
1 cup pasta
1/4 cup tomato soup

snack
1/2 slice home made wheat bread
1 small mandarin

Dinner
1 chicken enchilada
1/2 slice Home made wheat bread
14 cashews

Breakfast
14 cashews
2 slices wheat bread
4 oz ham

lunch
3 chicken enchilladas(chicken, tortilla, salsa verde, cheese)
1 serving dump cake

dinner
1 chicken enchillada
2 slices fresh baked whole wheat bread with 1/2 pat butter

Free Day

So, I knew I was going to a bbq today, and my stove got fixed yesterday, and my wife had a show tonight, so I decided to have a "free" day, where I keep track of what I eat, but don't worry about points, or trying to stay within limits. I have found that an occasional day like this helps me to keep on track, and I haven't had one since I started WW in February. It also gives me an idea of how likely I am to slip into my old habits if I stop tracking every bite.

So:

Breakfast
12 oz coffee with raw sugar
3 sausage links
3 hash brown patties
2 strips bacon

lunch
1 hamburger
3 shishkabobs(peppers, mushrooms, chicken, steak, sausage(about 3 oz chicken, 1 oz sausage, 1 oz steak, total)
1 12 oz sprite

Dinner
1 foot long all beef hot dog, mustard, ketchup and relish

I'll total the ww points later, see how badly I went over. I don't feel like I used to, all full and bloated, so that's a good sign. I notice, looking at it, that I naturally ate lighter as the day went on. Good change.

Well.
I went and added everything into Weightwatchers online. Double checked it. Without even paying attention, without trying, I came in just under my daily allowed points. That's a very good thing. That means I've been eating right for long enough that it's becoming natural for me. Doesn't mean I can slack off, but it's a very good indication that I am doing exactly what I need to be.